John Mark Nelson: “After All I’ve Done”

Breakdown stop and repair it all
Cut the loose ends each time I fall
Pick up the pieces and start again
When life burns down a new life can begin
I’ve got nothin’ to call upon
Nothing to prove where I belong
Nothing can save what you erase
I may never see that pleasure in your face
What if I’m forgotten
What if I’m afraid to love
What if there’s no answers
To the questions that define my failures

Even for a single moment
Everything around is faded
This is where I long to know you
And everything that you’ve created
Even when I’m scared to follow
I can be a song you sing at night
Come see me in the light of the morning
I don’t even know who you are

I give up and you look at me
With a new face I never see
I feel safe then I go too far
Lost myself in the beauty that you are
I don’t know just which way to be
I lose my way so easily
If you can live on in a memory
Baby writing it down is just a better way to let you be

I have urgent breathing
Nothing else can feel so true
Tell me what to call you
Oh you know me more than I can know you

Even for a single moment
Everything around is faded
This is where I long to know you
And everything that you’ve created
Even when I’m scared to follow
I can be a song you sing at night
Come see me in the light of the morning
I don’t even know who you are

In my youth I knew you
In the words and in the sound
Like a storm in springtime
Longing to be found

I’ve become much stranger
I don’t know which way to run
Would you take me like this?
After all that I have done…

Even for a single moment
Everything around is faded
This is where I long to know you
And everything that you’ve created
Even when I’m scared to follow
I can be a song you sing at night
Come see me in the light of the morning
I don’t even know who you are

Even for a single moment
Everything around is faded
And this is where I long to know you
And everything that you’ve created
Even when I’m scared to follow
I can be a song you sing at night
Come see me in the light of the morning
I don’t even know who you are

About Jay F Guin

My name is Jay Guin, and I’m a retired elder. I wrote The Holy Spirit and Revolutionary Grace about 18 years ago. I’ve spoken at the Pepperdine, Lipscomb, ACU, Harding, and Tulsa lectureships and at ElderLink. My wife’s name is Denise, and I have four sons, Chris, Jonathan, Tyler, and Philip. I have two grandchildren. And I practice law.
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